As usual, I fell asleep on blogging. Like always, I decided I had better things to do than blog about my life no virtually no one. I suck, and I vow to do better. One of the main reasons was due to the fact that the stolen Internet that I...um, steal, was not working very well. Well, it's still not working very well, but better, it seems. I keep dragging my feet on getting some legal, reliable Internet for the apartment, especially now that I've purchased a PS3. I would like nothing better than to go online with all of my awesome stuffs that I own, but I keep lagging on getting that information that I received to my wife, who ultimately holds the final say in what we do. Cost is an issue. I don't want to pay like fucking crazy for something that's too fast, yet I really don't want Internet that is so slow, why bother even paying for it. At least I wouldn't have these connection problems, because that's the issue now. But it's not like we can't afford it, we have extra money every week. a lot of extra money actually, and we usually blow it on bullshit. It's nice to go to mall, buy something and not feel all guilty about it though. I know we would still be able to go buy some clothes or video games or whatever and still be able to afford Internet here at our house, even if it is $60 a month. I've also heard horror stories about Comcast, and how their service is terrible. I really have no other option for a combination of speed, and price. To be honest, I feel that price is no issue, but speed is. I also don't want to pay like fucking crazy, like I stated before. I don't know, it just feels like I'm scarred to pull the trigger on something that will make my life happier and less frustrating. Just to be able to check my Facebook quick and read some articles and network with my friends miles away, quickly, would make my life so much easier. Not being able to connect on the patio is frustrating to all hell, to the point it kinda ruins my day.
It's been nice being able to go out and get/do all the things I want to do on a weekly basis. Like, I ordered a T-shirt offline yesterday (when it was working) and stuff like that. I can to to Target and buy whatever I want, within reason of coarse. I don't flinch when I drop $80 at target on stuff we need and also get stuff we want too. Living with a lot more money has been so nice, and I don't see it changing in the future either, unless something really shitty happens. But I'm not the type of person that worries about all the "what ifs" and I usually just enjoy what I have. I find life is much more enjoyable like this. What will be, will be. Not much you can do about the unforeseeable. I do, however, like to plan, contrary to my earlier statements. I plan for things I would like to achieve. Save money to go home, work out in the gym so I don't get huge. Things of that nature.
I also want to be more like Big Dave, lol. He made a podcast, which I have downloaded, but have yet to listen to. His blogs are very good, as Dave is a smart guy. I like to think I'm a smart guy too, but I don't have the immediate perspective as Dave does. I just want to be more like Big Dave.
As I mentioned above, I have been working out in our gym facilities that are here at our apartment complex lately. It's really hard to get the ambition to get up and go over there, but when I do, I feel so much better about myself. If I plan to work out one day, then I don't, I beat myself up all night about it at work. I look at myself in the mirror at work, in my white polo shirt of a uniform, and think how people must think when they see a security officer that looks like a jelly roll, or a cream puff. I want the people that I am hired to protect and assist feel like they have someone physically capable of doing so. When they see a pudgy little quiet, shy fellow sitting at the desk doing "nothing," they must think that I am worthless and anyone could do this job (which is probably true). People must think our security staff is totally incapable of doing anything remotely protective. That's part of the reason I need to get in shape. Also, I'm committed to helping my wife get in shape too, so she can feel better about herself. As I stated in a previous blog, I feel like the most unhealthy vegetarian in the world. I am currently taking steps to reverse that sentiment. Unfortunately, I still have days like yesterday where I only ate bean burritos for lunch and dinner, due to my unwavering laziness. Though, it was a cheap eats day, in defense.
So, today is a better day than the day before. I worked out, ate carrots, I'm already showered, so I don't have to do that in a rush. I can just prepare my lunch for work and mosey on in. Work should suck, as it's possibly the most boring job on planet earth, but that's exactly what I was looking for.
OK, have a good one.
